so my computer is having a metal day today, being slower then all get out. guess it's time for a cleaning . but it's been a long long while sense i've written anything on the journal thingy, so i felt like just writing....nothings really changed just another year of stuff going on... going to move soon hopefully. but my mother a few days ago was trying to shove looking at colleges down my throat. that crap hurt like hell. lol not really but it stressed me out. she told me i should be excited... because i'm planning out my life, says the person who's plans every little thing out to the person who can't plan at all with out messing up. lol But we looked at two colleges together, then i looked at one by myself which i have to do more of. but we looked at hunter college, which is in new york city. it looked very nice, but shes scared of me going there because she's worried someone will hurt me or something. it's called mace i know its agents the law in new york but, a girl has to have some type of protection right? then we looked at Boston college... which is in Boston for those of you who are slow. lol. but the campus looked so beautiful even with the crap load of snow and the crappy ass web cams they had outside, but it's more expensive then Hunter, which i didn't get because just living in new york city in a crappy little apartment is and arm and a leg. but the one i looked at alone was portland state. i've always wanted to go see portland i've seen photos and heard about it from people i talk to from there and it sounds like me...the whole artist city, funky, rainy thing. just it sounds so appealing to me. i also looked at some of the buildings on there campus and some of them were built in the early 1900s, and they had photos of the insides of theses buildings and it was just drop dead beautiful. but i have to find 2 more because my mother wants a list of 5 colleges i want to go to. i honestly don't know where to go all i know is i want to study psychology and then minor in arts. ugh i dunno... i'm going to post a few things after i get out of the shower, and then go back to college looking. blah* smashes head on desk* lol i hate this. but i hope all of you are alive and well, and i wish you a marry Christmas and a very happy new years, now don't get to drunk then because the hang over will be killer.